Sep 24 2019

The Last Star + Presence

The Last Star

What a funny world we live in. I just wrote about being “content” on life and then life threw me a curve ball. I am happy with, figuratively and literally, where we are (even if that “means” camping in our current money pit). But then the death came in and mixed my sensitive ways all up.

I love living this glorious life. I truly think my past-life ancestors were explorers. Exploring feeds and fuels my soul. Or nomads, but whatever they were there is some adventure-finding stuff in me.

I’ll probably only be left with photos of monkeys and bears + friends and kids + lots n lots of solo hikes at my funeral, but that’s really okay with me. That is me.

But then damn Brené Brown has to use her words to throw my confidence and contentment for a goddamn loop.

Someone super special to me just passed away and once again… I am away. This happened with both of Dustin’s grandparents. We waited and waited for the news of his grandmother and even pushed a vacation w/ friends. We are 10 hours into the drive and we get the call that she has passed. We couldn’t afford to all leave the vacation (bc we just paid for it all) and fly to MO. Does Dustin go alone? Then the same incident happens when leaving MO visiting is grandfather. One day he was chatting with Will and by the next morning he was in the hospital. They didn’t know how long. Could this be like grandma and last for weeks? We had no idea. And of course on our drive back to TX, he passes.

And now this. AJ passes away the day my parents arrive in CO. They came up a week early. Why in the world would this timing keep happening?

Because… back to damn Brené (have you guys read, Braving the Wilderness)?

She talks about being at a funeral in a small town in Texas and how funerals are “one of the most powerful examples of collective pain”. Guess what else she goes on to say? “When I asked participants to identify three to five specific behaviors that their friends, family, and colleagues do that raise their level of trust with them, funerals always emerged in the top three responses. Funerals matter. Showing up to them matters. And funerals matter not just to the people grieving, but to everyone who is there. When I asked The collective pain (and sometimes joy) we experience when gathering in any way to celebrate the end of a life is perhaps one of the most powerful experiences of inextricable connection. Death, loss, and grief are the great equalizers.

“Only holiness will call people to listen now. And the work of holiness is not about perfection or niceness; it is about belonging, that sense of being in the Presence and through the quality of that belonging, the mild magnetic of implicating others in the Presence. This is not about forging a relationship with a distant God but about the realization that we are already within God.”

— John O’Donohue (Chapter Six: Hold Hands. With Strangers)

I, like Brené’s aunt Betty, do not want a funeral. I do want my people near and far to come and party (and not a pot-luck, please cater that baby so nobody has to stress about food or clean… take the $ from my life insurance pot if you need to).


Back to Betty… I too just want to celebrate! I want you to chat about the fun and love we shared together. If you cannot make it, I want you to chime in live or with hashtags or photos and lots of coffee and bubbly! I want you all to chat about how amazing your life is “of all times right now”. I want you to promise to look after my 2 kids and hubs! I want you to celebrate knowing that I’ll always be looking after you all (insert: evil laugh bc you know I’ll so love watching after you).

Brené mentions, “An experience of collective pain does not deliver us from grief or sadness; it is a ministry of presence. These moments remind us that we are not alone in our darkness and that our broken heart is connected to every heart that has known pain since the beginning of time.”

My contented heart is conflicted. Am I selfish for feeling like I need to be there for funerals or am I not ministering my presence for that individual and that is selfish?

I did jolt out of bed early in this morning and see the above star. It made me smile. I smiled because I knew it was AJ telling me it was all going to be okay. Life is complicated enough and it doesn’t need to be pilled up with guilt of always being “away”. I do, however, recognize that I have a lot to improve on. I owe so many people gifts (simply because I get overwhelmed on finding the perfect thing and I suck at online shopping). It takes me forever to respond to social media and then it overwhelms me, but gollee do I love you. My love for you people is so hardcore.

I hope you can honor the place where I find peace; forgive me for all my faults; and truly love me just as I am. And I hope that I will always be a light in your life for you to find your way, your peace, your contentment and your happiness. Just look up. Look for the Last Star and I’ll help you find the way.

Sep 7 2019



Play this while reading and during your Restorative Fish Pose (or anytime you feel you may need a little heart opening)…


The heart chakra is this beautiful area of the body surrounding… you probably guessed it… the heart.

It is associated with love, compassion, and self-acceptance.

It represents being “unstruck,”. When properly “aligned,” past hurts are said to no longer harm us. When balanced, we are filled with love, compassion, and self-acceptance. When imbalanced, we can be angry, jealous, sad, and untrusting.


You will need blocks, a bolster, a blanket or some towels.

Lie your bolster, blankets or towels vertically aligned with your mat.

If you have blocks, allow the first block to support your back just below the tips of your shoulder blades, and the second block to support the back of your skull.

Send your heart toward the sky and open your arms into a T.

You can have you legs in a butterfly pose or stretch them out long. Choose whichever variations feel best for you and breathe deeply here for no less than five minutes.

If you need to decrease the intensity place a rolled-up blanket (instead of a block) under your heart.

Relax. Allow your legs to become heavy. Soften your shoulders away from your ears. Release any tension you may be holding in your jaw. Breathe deep.

Visualize the color green.

Bring your attention to your heart center.

Think of someone you love deeply. Send all your loving-kindness to this one person. Repeat the following mantra as if speaking to the person…

“May you live with ease, may you be happy, may you be free from pain,”

-Loving-Kindness Meditation

Next, think of someone toward whom you have neutral feelings. Focus on them, sending all of your loving-kindness to this person while repeating the same mantra, focusing on them.

Then, think of someone with whom you struggle. Repeat the mantra and send that person all of your loving-kindness. Then think of yourself. Repeat the mantra and send all of your loving-kindness to yourself.

Finally, think of all living beings. Repeat the mantra as you send loving-kindness to all beings everywhere.

Sit with these feelings for a few moments.


Sep 26 2018


Oh End-Of-September… what have you done?

Ideas, fears, thoughts and vulnerabilities are twirling and swirling inside.  

S Q U I R R E L: Speaking of vulnerability, have you listened to Brene’ Brown’s Power of Vulnerability TED Talk? 

So… BAM! It hits me. I finally look at the calendar and realize it’s the 2018 Autumn Equinox and a Harvest Moon! Happy Fall Y’all! 

Besides ragweed in Texas – that is not kind to me –  fall is a gorgeous (actually my favorite) time of year that I miss tremendously. I miss watching the kids and D rake the leaves (Yep, I’m the supervisor. The Big Guy does not let me touch his yard or his 60+ bags of live oak tree leaves). I miss wearing boots and jeans… and layers! I miss all my Capricorn-self neutral colors blasted everywhere (or is Christmas stuff overwhelming it all – say it ain’t so – please).

S Q U I R R E L… this Capricorn is turning 40 this year by the way! Ho Ho Ho! 

I do NOT, however, miss me trying to have a glass of wine on our Anniversary (10 years tomorrow – September 27th – what what) and my face puffing up and turning into a ‘I wanna scratch it off’ situation – “CHEERS H O N E Y – “NOW LET’S GO HOME”. God forbid I’d actually smarten up and take something for my ragweed allergies (instead, I moved). 

The ironic part is I’m writing about a fall realization from my rainy season view here in Costa Rica. The trees are all full and bright & green. But a girl can “have roots and wings”! Sorry Jake, they truly can (who’s with me here?)! I can! I can sit here on my ‘wing’ and look at everything perking up with also having a sense of shedding that I visualize from my ‘roots’. 

I was with chatting with someone special yesterday and I felt compelled to tell ‘special person’ I wanted to write about this strong urge of shedding that I was feeling like preaching about. Those of you that have been in a class, retreat or presentation with me know I like to talk (heck every single person that knows me knows I like to talk, to preach, to not… shut… up…), but I don’t have you Texans face to face anymore. I told ‘special person’ I was trying to write about it and I just couldn’t  get it together, until ‘special person’ called. Until ‘special person’ challenged me to tell her about it. Until ‘special person’ dared me to write about it. 

After our conversation, it unfolded like magic. The fairy dust had been sprinkled.  I finally found the vibe, the words, my thoughts.. and get this… I got it from a blog, a source, a link called, “Hallie Rose” (ignore the spelling) – it was truly meant to be! ‘Hally Rose’ is my niece by the way! It was a sign! I love my little Hally! 

What I was trying to talk to ‘special person’ about was the Autumn Equinox and Harvest Moon… and Hallie Rose (Hally Rose) gave me the words. I forwarded ‘special person’ the Autumn Equinox blog post right away for this Hallie Rose chick was able to write about what I was trying express (And because vulnerability is hard for me, writing is hard for me. I am not a writer so I just think about how people will judge me, however, I have so much I want to say (So. Much. To. Say,). You see… I am in need of a little shedding of that which holds me back. All the times I tell myself I am not enough and wait until it’s perfect… and then the perfect never comes. Do you see why Brené is so important to me. I need her. I hide in the corner. I don’t  dance in public like nobody is watching. I need more Brené). Okay, let’s dive in: 

  • Autumn Equinox: “Shed your leaves, or the nest of busy things that demand your attention, you may feel bare, vulnerable, or uncomfortable. Taking a leap and making a change are scary things. Suddenly, the tree, once surrounded in lush emerald robes, is now bare. Naked and alone it experiences a period of darkness: the cold of winter. The tree may think, “Leaves, come back! I miss you.”. But one day the tree wakes up and sees a lovely view: “I would have missed this view had I not shed my leaves.”. Shedding what doesn’t serve us is always scary. But in order to invite new opportunities, relationships, and challenges into our lives we must clear space for them. New leaves can’t grow unless we let the old ones go.Sometimes our lives feel so full there doesn’t seem to be room for anything else. We have the job, the partner, children, pets, activities, renovations, and social commitments. Sometimes we find ourselves going through the motions. A whole week passes and we ask ourselves, “What did I do for myself this week?”. Our lives are too full. We make excuses, “I don’t have time to [journal, paint, exercise, work on my novel, be in nature], I’m just too busy.” As humans, I think we are comfortable being busy. The busy things in our lives are like our leaves: they surround us, keep us  feeling warm, useful, and shield us from the scary unknown. This busy work can seem impressive, and keep us looking good on the outside: isn’t a lush green tree more beautiful than a bare one? As a tree, taking care of the leaves is our duty. Right? You see, “Trees actually go through a process called abscission whereby specialized cells stop sending water to the leaves and the tree actually reabsorbs its nutrients. This fortifies the tree for the dark days of winter. Interestingly, the word abscission comes from the same root word as “scissors:” scindere, which means “to cut” or “split.” In this way leaves do not just “fall” from the trees, they are released with purpose, cut away rather than blown off by the wind; I think this bears a certain intentionality.” 

You see, sitting here thinking about ‘fall’ & thinking about this Harvest Moon and the Autumn Equinox in two countries simultaneously is mind blowing for me. I can shed with the leaves in Texas and bloom like the trees in Costa Rica. It’s so goose-bumpy to me! 

Oh and about the full moon:

  • Harvest Moon: “Full moons are powerful, they are about a change in season. During full moons, all parts of life – light and dark – get illuminated, and is an opportunity to do some emotional cleaning. This Full Harvest Moon rises in the astrological sign of Virgo. Astrologers believe the sign is governed by the planet Mercury and governs aspects of life and work. Eventually a series of crises, test and challenges, will perfect the skills necessary to overcome the obstacles, frustration and conflict of the opposition. The honing of the necessary life skills & learning to relate to others at the emotional level, can lead to the life-experience necessary for great achievements and success.” If you were keeping an eye on the stars this past summer, you’ll recall that things were a little, er, wild. Between all the planetary retrogrades and multiple eclipses, we had our hands full dealing with celestially inspired chaos and changes. If you take a moment this week to look back on the tumultuous summer, you’ll likely realize you learned a thing or two about rolling with the punches — and that’s always worth celebrating. If you’re hoping to use the September full moon as more than a victory lap, you’re in luck. It’ll be moving through two signs that will help you determine — and then create — your vision for the future. So, whether you’re basking in a recent triumph or preparing for your next success, this full moon will serve you in your pursuits. And, more importantly, it’ll remind you that there’s more to fall than lugging your coats out of storage.”
So… read it or delete it, but if you’ve felt a little weird this week, there might be a reason why. The good news is that you can blame in on the arrival of autumn and the full moon!
Yee Haw & Pura Vida! 
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Dec 6 2017


We all have random and a variety of careers;  we have different socioeconomic backgrounds;  our parenting styles are all unique; and we don’t even live in the same towns (or country for that matter). But… 

we are… in this together! 

Our country is stressful, our homes are stressful, our jobs are stressful and our kids are stressed out (oh well, us ‘big people’ too of course). We live in an over-scheduled, over-stimulated world these days – parents and kids.

I talk about this a lot in my Yoga + Mindfulness in the Classroom trainings – no matter the age, we all absorb the stress of our society. Kids and adults are “acting out” these days. These are just normal reactions because we never take any time to relax, breathe and settle our little brains down anymore (aka: get off our phones – hello need for immediate replies on text, emails, facebook, ipad games, etc…).

I do have some great news for ya! Whatever you do, wherever you go you will always find it hard to find balance. Accept that and understand that we don’t have to create a perfect ‘life’ for our kids and for others. We actually can’t control much of that at all (think about it). What we can do is make a few changes to simplify our lives a bit and show our children that we don’t have to succumb to the stressors in life we currently complain about. 

I sat with my children in complete silence yesterday before school (we were waiting for our mindful bell to go off… and yes I was using youtube for it – I never said I was perfect #wink), I notice all 3 of us had a wonderful, energetic yet calm start to our day. What a difference that 5 minute break can make. A small 5 minutes of our day can make a big difference in your life. 

My message for you, Folks – you can’t change ‘life’, but you can learn how to enjoy it in a more present and fulfilling way. 

Love you and thanks for reading. 


Mar 8 2014

A Daily Reminder

love-lifeLive your life with charisma and love for everything you do. It’s important to keep it in the back of our mind that at any point everything can change. Let’s take advantage of the life that we have in front of us while we have it – try to enjoy the present moment; be grateful for what you have; and be awed at the inherent wonder & beauty of what so often seems mundane. Pursue a higher something to believe in and in true, genuine relationships like today is your last day to do so. Do not leave anything unsaid and remember to love life for the beauty that it holds.

Jun 24 2013


Reputition Henry FordIf you take consistent action toward your goals, progress will be easier to see, however, it’s the consistency part that typically messes us up. 

Think about when you’ve tried to set a huge goal? Was it easy to feel overwhelmed even before you started? Now try this: 

  • Pick a goal you are excited about / need to complete! 
  • Create a list of action items for that goal & put them in order. 
  • Take the first item and start! Every small step helps you get there and they add up over time. 
  • Keep moving along, taking one step at a time, until your’ve worked your way through the list. 

We understand that first step will be the hardest! Lean waaaay into in and just get started!

Oct 21 2012

Breaking Negative Patterns

Do you have patterns that do not support your growth & happiness?

Patterns are tied to strong emotions. This is how they’ve gained their strength. Something happens, we get emotionally triggered and we react. It’s a cycle that repeats and deepens until we decide to break it.
Recognizing patterns is good. Taking action to begin dissolving them is even better. This is how you can free yourself from your unconscious programs that keep you stuck.
Move from knowing to doing this week and create one positive change in your life. –Get good at living
  • Identify a pattern you’d like to dissolve
  • List all of your triggers
  • Experiment with a new response
“He is most powerful who has power over himself.” —Seneca

Sep 12 2012

We Hope…

…you are loving your life!
Really, really, really loving your life!

Apr 30 2012


May 15th – Free Health Seminar in Schulenburg
May 20th – Love, Listen & Learn from Your Body Workshop
June 9th – Rebel Race

Monday/Thursday 630PM – Schulenburg Sports Complex
Friday 530AM – Schulenburg Sports Complex
Monday/Thursday 430PM – La Grange White Rock Park
Monday/Thursday 430PM – Hallettsville ISD playground
Tuesday/Thursday 530PM – Weimar City Park
Monday/Wednesday 600PM – Austin’s Garrison Park**
Tuesday/Thursday 745AM – Austin’s Butler Park
Monday/Wednesday/Friday 615AM – Austin’s Mueller Park

June 12th – Schulenburg, Tx 30 minute running class
Tuesday/Wednesday/Thursday 630AM. Locations will change
Summer Youth Program
Beginner’s Bootcamp
Nutritional Weight Loss Classes

**formerly Dittmar Park